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I Can't Remember Applying for This Job

Thomas Bell got his dream job, but he can't remember the interview. When he discovers his coworkers have the same memory gap—and skills they never learned—he begins to suspect something happened in that room that none of them were supposed to remember.

CHARACTER PERSPECTIVES

Thomas Bell

4 min read

Everyone says job interviews are stressful, but I literally cannot remember mine at Meridian Consulting.

I remember driving there on a Tuesday morning in October. I remember sitting in their waiting room, flipping through a copy of Scientific American while trying not to sweat through my best shirt. The receptionist had kind eyes and offered me coffee twice. I remember thinking the office felt expensive—all glass and steel with abstract art that probably cost more than my rent.

But those two hours in between? Complete blank.

The next thing I remember is walking to my car in their parking garage, feeling oddly calm. Not the usual post-interview anxiety where you replay every answer and cringe at your mistakes. Just... peaceful. Empty, almost.

Three days later, they called to offer me the position. Senior Data Analyst, exactly what I'd been hoping for. Great salary, excellent benefits, the kind of opportunity that could change everything. I should have been ecstatic.

Instead, I felt unsettled.

When I tried to prepare for my first day, I realized I couldn't remember what the job actually entailed. I'd applied for dozens of positions that month—the post-graduation job hunt was brutal—but I couldn't find my application materials for Meridian anywhere. Not in my email, not in my files, not even in my browser history.

"Must have been through a recruiter," my roommate suggested. But I couldn't remember talking to any recruiters about Meridian.

The weird part is, everyone I work with says they had the same experience.

"I honestly can't remember my interview either," laughed Sarah from Marketing during our orientation lunch. "Must have been really intense, right? Like one of those stress interviews where they break you down and build you back up."

Mike from IT nodded. "Same here. I remember the building, remember getting the call, but the actual interview? Nothing. HR said it was some new assessment process they were testing."

When I finally worked up the courage to ask HR for a copy of my application materials—you know, just to refresh my memory about what I'd promised to deliver—they gave me a sympathetic smile.

"System error," the HR manager explained. "We had a server crash right after that round of hiring. Lost a bunch of files. But don't worry, we have everything we need in your employee record."

Except my employee record shows I have skills I don't remember learning. Advanced statistical modeling. Proficiency in programming languages I'm pretty sure I've never studied. When I mentioned this discrepancy, my supervisor just smiled.

"Imposter syndrome," she said. "Very common. You'll grow into the role."

But here's the thing that really bothers me: I am growing into the role. The work feels familiar, even when it shouldn't. My fingers know keyboard shortcuts I don't remember learning. I solve problems using methods I can't recall studying.

Yesterday, I caught myself explaining a complex data visualization technique to a new hire, speaking with confidence about concepts I'm certain I never learned in college. When I tried to remember where I'd picked up that knowledge, I hit the same blank wall I encountered when I think about my interview.

It's like someone upgraded my brain's software without telling me.

Has anyone else experienced something like this? Missing memories around important life events, but somehow having the skills or knowledge you should have gained during those missing hours?

I'm starting to wonder if that two-hour gap in my memory wasn't stress-induced amnesia.

I'm wondering if something else happened in that interview room.

Something I was never supposed to remember.

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Have you ever had a job interview you couldn't remember? Sometimes the most important conversations are the ones we're not supposed to recall.

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Disclaimer: This is a fictional perspective from Thomas Bell, protagonist of the neurothriller "Recallen: Entry Wound." While Thomas's experience is fictional, it explores very real questions about memory, identity, and the increasing use of psychological assessment in hiring processes. What happens when the line between evaluation and modification becomes blurred?

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Additional Reading Sources

Memory Loss in Employment Contexts

Corporate Personality Testing and Neural Assessment

Brain-Computer Interface Development

Unexplained Memory Phenomena

Current Neural Technology Trends

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